…or at least it feels like one.
I was actually offered by a prof in my faculty to do and individual study with him, following the module “Experimental Form Study of Visual Information”. Erm, it’s a very very long story how I got here, so I shan’t go into it.
Today was my first appointment with him. I was supposed to show him some initial research and analysis of my assignment. I was kinda gan jiong as I didn’t know how much I was expected to prepare for this first meeting, and I guess the main reason is cos it’s a one-to-one thing, not like a group discussion or sth. Guess it feels a little intimidating.
Actually this teacher is a very nice guy, gentle and polite, just that he reminds me too much of the examiners I used to get when I went for piano exams. And piano exams are SCARY. He’s, well, not too old, maybe in his 40s or 50s; wears a black suit, looks through a pair of reading glasses, has a pair of large hands, sits upright at his desk, plus he’s ang moh. That really makes him look like the typical piano examiner. And that’s scary, to me at least.
Anyway, though I somehow felt that my preparation was insufficient, I just showed him whatever I had. And surprisingly, he was very impressed with the information I had found and ideas I had. Phew!
As we were making the next appointment for a discussion again, he said to me, “I am really excited to see what you can come up with in the next meeting. I like what you showed me today.” Hais, that just made me even more stressed. Somehow feel that I wouldn’t be able to meet his expectations of me and would disappoint him.
Anyway, besides the normal assignment discussion the next meeting, I am also supposed to take an “exam” with him. Supposed to read a book called “Communication Design”, then he’ll ask me questions based on the book and my view on the author’s stand. How stressful is that! If it’s a written paper, I can still think it through, plan a structure and write an essay, but it’s gonna be verbal! Man. I just hope I don’t get too gan jiong until I start talking nonsense. But is really feels like the aural part of the piano exam, if not worse! Pray for me!
Sigh, I guess this is part of life. Eventually I’ll hafta go through interviews, which is similar to this, in order to get a job. So I guess this is good training for me. Anyway, I think im really very privileged to have a personal tutor. He actually has to fork out an hour each time just to do this assignment with me. And I think I can really learn a lot from these sessions. So I should really work extremely hard so that I won’t put this opportunity to waste.